Tuesday morning, we were given the assignment to go out into b-town and evangelize. This was a tough assignment for me, because I was very uncomfortable and I’m not one to strike up conversations, it just doesn’t come naturally for me.
The plan was to go into a coffee shop or store and find someone and just get to know them. Hopefully, I would get the chance to ask them about God and who they thought Jesus was. I wanted to share with someone the gospel and God’s great love for us.
My friend and I walked into McDonald’s that morning and decided to approach people one on one. I decided to approach a couple and try to get to know who they were. But when I asked them if I could ask them a few questions for school, they asked what school, and shot me down. I mean, how discouraging was that?! I brushed it off, as we left to go somewhere else, but it took what little confidence I had.
We later walked into Books-A-Million and hoped to engage in conversation with someone there. Walking through the isles, I asked God to show me what I was doing wrong and why it was so hard for me to do this. He showed me I was putting my confidence in myself and not in Him. I made that day about me and what I wanted to do, and not about what the Lord wanted to do through me. I ran into a few friends from class and was encouraged by one of them to just take this day as a lesson. A lesson to be more aware of others, anywhere I go, and to be less self-involved that next time I walk into a coffee shop or wherever the day takes me.
I want to be more focused on others, to share the gospel where I go, not just because it’s been assigned, but because it’s a natural outflow of my heart.